Migraine

I'm on migraine number three this week. Tues, Wed and now Thurs.
My head is spinning, vision is blurry, and I'm sooo sick to my stomach.

I'm usually an optomistic person, but today not so much. I feel terrible, and pretty depressed about my situation.

My neuro appt is next Thurs, at which point I'll be switched to a new preventive med. It's just depressing that in the BEST case scenario, I'm going to feel awful for 6 more weeks. And that is IF the new one works. The upside is I think the next one we are trying is available in a generic, so I won't end up spending over $100 on something that isn't helping and giving me stomach aches.

What is bothering me the most is I temporarily dropped out of school last week. I love school. I didn't want to leave, but I just don't see any other option. I was skating on thin ice of getting kicked out because of my attendance. I was hoping that having less stress and more sleep would help, but it hasn't yet.

I really thought this massive increase in my migraines was caused by being in school. I started May 2007, and in July is when my migraines became chronic. Now I am scared school had nothing to do with it, which means I have NO idea what could have caused this sharp upswing in my migraines.

I am at 11 months of this now. I know compared to so many of you 11 months is a blip, but for me this has just been so hard.

I'm just sick of being sick. I'm sick of being in pain all the time. I am sick of having to give up so much of my life because I can't fix this or make it stop. I'm sick of eating nothing but toast for days in a row because I can't stomach anything else. I'm sick of having stomach aches from medications. I'm sick of shelling out money for drugs that aren't working. I'm sick of having to explain this disease to everyone in my life.

Sorry, I just needed to vent today. I could use some virutal hugs.

Kat,

And hugs you will get. It doesn't matter if you have been battling this 11 months or 11 years, it is a drag and a drain on you.

You have been so wonderful at listening to me, you know that this is the place you never have to worry about venting. We all know how you feel.

Take care of yourself. Any chance the neuro would get you in early based on how lousy you are feeling?

Cindy

I am so sorry Kat. I am not very encouraging today, Im just not.

Im actually having a crummy day today myself, and when I read your post I read, "virtual DRUGS" LOL.

So here's sending you some virtual "drugs" and hugs!

Kat,
I'm so sorry you are having such a terrible time! Major to you!! I think if I hear "oh, I have a headache too" one more time, I'm going to scream! We all know exactly how you feel and that's why we all understand. I hope things get better for you soon!
Lynn

Hi Kat!

I know how it goes with school. It's taken me a long road to seniordom, but I'm finally there and I can't go due to the migraines; they take to much out of me. So I can sympathize with you, because I love school too, and I'm SO close to graduating. I had to give up an internship that I enjoyed more than anything because I was too sick.

What being in school so long has taught me is that there is always time to finish what you start, even if it seems to take forever. You might have a later start than others, but sometimes age is a benefit in that regard. Older and wiser, as they say!

Concentrate on yourself and focus on academics later!

I hope that you're feeling better today. Migraines can really test our hope and patience, that's for sure. But we're here for you.

Thank you all for the virtual hugs and drugs (lol Jaimee ).

I lied down for about a half hour (thank god I work from home!) and the migraine has broken up a lot. I'm down to about a 2-3/10 now, so I'm a little more rational. It is amazing how much more optomistic I am when someone pulls the screwdrivers out of my ears....

I was able to get down some oatmeal, which is a step up from toast. I'll be really excited when I can eat a non-breakfast food again.

As usual, support from you guys is what gets me through days like today.

Kat- Here's some more hugs
I'm so sorry you had to drop out of school. I'm sorry you're in so much pain, that the medications aren't working. This disease is just crummy, plain and simple.
The good news is, there is a medication that will work for you- there is hope! You will go back and finish school, I know you will. I had to leave a master's program I loved because of my migraines, but I know I can go back and finish once I get them under control.

I'm glad you're feeling better now- and I'm glad you were able to come and vent.

Valerie

Kat,

I'm so happy you're feeling better!

You know, I'm almost like you when it comes to food. When I'm down with a migraine it's either saltines or a nice bowl of sugar-filled kid cereal no matter what time of day it is. Here's to you graduating to non-breakfast food today.