Migraine

Hey Teri thanks for the note, kinda nice to be missed. I been going through some pretty rough times. My Mother passed away June 25th, still working through that, I miss her so much. She was only 65, she had Polycystic Kidney Diease, she had a transplant over 13yrs ago. Which was great, but the drugs you have to take the rest of your life take a toll on your body. Steroids being the worst, she had osteo so bad, I lost count of the number of fractures she had.

In the later part of May her transplanted kidney started shutting down. She retained fluid, lab levels, were all over the chart. Her heart was not strong enough for another transplant or dialylis. The docs did everything they could, with meds to get the fluid off, I.V. Laxis ect.

By mid June they said it would be just a matter of time. We put her on hospice June 20, she passed on the 25th. We were all with her. At least now she is not suffering or in pain. They say time heals all wounds, the time just isn't here yet.
I'll try to make my next visit sooner.
Roni

Roni,

Time changes the wound. My Mama died 30 Dec. 2000 of metastatic breast cancer. She died at home, with Hospice and my sister and brother there. So, I'm a little further along "hoeing the row" with you.

I still ALMOST hear and see Mama, as if she's standing just outside my peripheral vision and just out of my hearing. Guess I always will. Guess you will, too.

The pain isn't as harsh, as breathtaking, as it was a few months afterwards. We laugh much more easily at the funny things we remember about Mama.

And, it's easier for my sister and me to admit we are becoming our Mama!

So, here's a big and a big . Our Mamas are comparing notes on us! Are your ears burning? Mine sure are! (Oh, and they are bragging on us, too!)

,

Rebecca

Thanks, I think about things my Mom use to do everyday. I like to remember the funny things most. She was in a nursing home the last 3yrs, because she kept falling and couldn't be by herself. She fell and fractured her 2 disc's T spine, that was when we knew she could no longer live alone. We tried having her live with my family, and I took care of her. I did not begruge one moment! She was here for 3 months, then I ended up in the hospital with migraines out of control and some other medical problems, I was in the hospital 28 days. I realize then and as well as my Dr that I couldn't take care of my Mother. I hated
to send her there, it broke my heart, that I couldn't care for her.

Anyway back to happy thoughts This is a really funny story. I had called Mom at the Home to talk (tried to do that everyday). We were just chatting along, she was watching the food network, telling what the person was making. At times she would lose her train of thought, as I do also, so we always joked that we made quite a pair. Then she says you know "I can't find my phone , I put it down to scratch my nose and now I can't find it " I start giving her all these places to look for the phone, this went on for a good 3-4 minutes, then it finally dawned on ME that we were TALKING on the phone. Gotta love what those migraines do to your brains! Boy did we have a good laugh over that. Its moments like that
that I want to remember, the good times, not the bad. The pain and sorrow is in the past. I still miss her and that hurts, but happy memories are balm.
Roni