Migraine

I'm making hay while the sun shines here. I've got pounding pain on the very top of my head that's about to do me in for today. A minute ago I got up to find my calculator for my mother and the movement exacerbated the pain so badly that I had to sit back down. I had three major rotational vertigo attacks yesterday with the whole Meniere's symptom spectrum of dreadful ear pressure, screaming tinnitus, and diminished hearing so OF COURSE I have to have a Migraine attack too.

I did want to share a triumph of sorts with everyone here. You all understand this war we're fighting in a way that people who don't have it don't understand.

Also, I plan to blog about this in a day or two or three, depending on how quickly this attack subsides.

I've just about completed a marvelous take-stock-of-your-life workbook. It has helped me find what it is that I really love in life, and I've made decisions and set goals.

I've had to start over, from scratch, more times than anyone should have to. I've found that formal exercises designed to guide me in re-evaluating my life are very, very useful when I have to start over.

Short-term goal for me right now is to get my overall health up to the point where I can take back over handling my personal business. I've posted here before that my most excellent Assistant Offspring have been doing things for me for two years and that Elder Assistant Offspring has POA for me. Being retired on disability and under an informal no-drive order from my Meniere's doc--well, not going to throw an impromptu pity party right now.

I have had success with distance learning in the past. I took 3 quarters of accounting online--can you PICTURE such torture?? The accounting I mean, not doing it online!

If I can regain enough functioning, I want to go back to school through a particular distance-learning school, an accredited college, and get a Master's degree. By utilizing distance learning, I know that if I have to suddenly lie down with vertigo or a Migraine attack, the work will still be there when the attacks have gone away.

If I can then earn my Master's, I know I'll have sufficiently recovered to go back to work. I will NOT attempt to work if I cannot ensure that I will be reliable. I am not currently reliable. I am way, way too hard on myself. The thought of fumbling through doing half-way jobs that might poorly serve the public that I love or even do damage to them is one I cannot entertain; therefore, I will not.

If anyone wants this kind of self-analysis review but isn't as far gone as I am, or doesn't want to spend at least a month working on it (this has taken me more than six weeks and I'm not completely finished), consider Nutmegan's free course. I have gone through it and it was very useful. It got me on track to go through this much longer workbook. Megs' course is sensible, intelligent, and she will never tell you that her system will cure Migraine!

I have to go now. I'm going to crawl underneath rocks like a reptile to see if they will give me sufficient relief until the attacks stops. If they don't I know they'll help until meds kick in.

*goes off to the land of lovely wish-fulfillment dreaming...*

Oh, and I love you all. I'm glad we're all on the same side.