Depression

I've had the depression component for nearly 20 years and I've been developing anxiety over the last 2 years. This week it has knocked me down and kept me from work. I've had panic attacks, been crying. The feeling in my chest, head and stomach are awful. Then adding to the stress is trying to help my husband understand (who doesn't suffer from depression). I feel low and I'm angry. This is not who I am. I am smart, funny and should not have this monster in my brain that keeps me from enjoying life. I would rather have a physical ailment than this. I know it will pass, but it is another 8 days until I can get in to see my psychiatrist for a med adjustment. I'm waiting for a return call from him (he's off for the next 4 days) to see if there is something he can call in for me in the mean time. I don't like feeling like a victim because of this and I'm frustrated and angry.