Depression

Im 18 years old and to the point of really not caring about anything anymore. I use to tell myself I was being crazy and things would get better. Im just to the point of not even wanting to try anymore. I constantly will loose my temper over little things, though most of the time I just don't feel anything. I find myself wishing everyday for it all to just end, for something to happen and end it. I have not been happy for years really, I do have an occasional day that I am, but its rare.

All my teen years was spent with people telling me that it was my fault everyone in my family was not getting along. My parents have turned their backs on me and even turned what few friends I had against me. I only have my aunt and uncle left that try to help. I moved in with them when my mother started spreading lies about me. I barely talk to anybody anymore, im to scared of being hurt. Plus with everything else I have been through, I just do not know who I can trust.

I really half the time just wish I did have somebody that I could talk to, somebody that understood what I was going through.

Hi, First of all don't be hard on yourself and you definitely are not alone. I have been in your shoes. It is a long, bumpy road ahead, but its duable. Most important thing is to talk to someone. You are most welcome to email, private message. Second,my best feelings were after i used to cry. Cry hard and you will feel better. Take negative things people have said/done to you, and try to make positives of them. People sometimes take their misery, faults, guilt,etc. and throw it at others that are vulnerable. Get a support network. Consist of getting numbers of people you can call and at what time of day you are allowed to call them so you can have someone to talk to at anytime of the day. I'm also Bipolar, been on off medications. Medications truly work only when you have support system in place. medications just give you chemical balance in your brain, You sound like you really need to talk out your issues and meds will help you cope. meds are not only solution.

Good luck, Remember that you are someone special in your on way!!!!!!!!!!

The thing is my parents have made it where I have nobody to talk to. Even the people who use to be inseperable from me want nothing to do with me. I have always tried to think positive, but now I just cant seem to. I try to keep telling myself that Ill be out of here soon and away from them, but its not working anymore. I have no idea how to even get a support network either. As for the meds, Im not on any. Plus I can't afford to even go on them.