Depression

Hello I am new to the group. Life has been interesting so far. I guess I have always struggled with depression but never let anyone know about it, and I still haven't let anyone know. I am not using any medication because I do not believe in them. In the last year or so I have managed to isolate myself from pretty much everybody. I no longer speak to my friends because I feel I am not an enjoyable person to be around anymore. I am so tired all of the time, and as much as I want to leave my home, I have no energy to do so, and once I do, I become saddened about how much I have hurt my friends and couldn't blame them for not wanting to be with me anymore. I used to love my job, now I can not stand it, even though it is what i've wanted to do since I was a child. I guess I'm on here just so someone can listen and relate to me in a somewhat anonymous medium. Would like to just have a support group to listen and understand what I've been going through.

Hello Dino,

My name is Donna. I understand how you are feeling. I am new to the group. I have been suffering from depression for 2 years but havent seeked help yet because I didnt want to go on medication and become reliant on it but I feel it is time I need to get some help. My depression started because I got into a lot of debt/financial difficulties and then I got sacked from my job because I couldnt get out of bed in the mornings because I felt so depressed, and then I got repossessed from my flat because I had no money coming in to pay the mortgage. I have suffered with symptoms of not being able to get out of bed, feeling tired all the time, having absolutely no energy, achey, headaches/migraines, suicidal thoughts "in the past", feeling miserable, cry easily/feel like crying, etc etc. I am in a 1 year loving relationship and live with my partner and have tried telling him how I feel but he just says "stop feeling sorry for yourself". I am scared that if I dont get some help I may end up losing him because I am so miserable all the time.

Hello Dino, hello DB,
Even though people with same difficulties are supposed meet here each other, there aren't many people that have posted anything lately, therefore they don't feel like there to share feelings. So I'm happy to find you here guys.
I'm like you Dino, I, too, guess that i've been struggling with depression for about three or so years. But it wasn't constant, just from time to time. At first I was just kind of embarassed, ashamed to own such a thing, and then i didn't really know if it was depression. Lately, when I saw a movie called something like "one flew over" and so, that's when I started to feel real bad. Because it seemed like, such a horrible thing it is this mental illness, and you have it, you might become like this. I was so scared . It made me feel really awful.
But now I think of it, I'm sure I shouldn't take it so hard. Because every kind of illness is difficult and hard, why should mental illnesses should be so awfully discriminated like that? and then types of illness has harder and lighter levels. This awful, not wholly realistic fear and stigma will just make our feelings worse, completely unnecessarily.
And so, even though after this recent worsening of feelings i'm quite sure there's depression, i'm still not telling my family. Because, my older brother had psychological problems too, she had a really hard time because of it. I don't want to give her any more pain. I don't want to give my family any pain. It's difficult to struggle alone, without my loved ones, but i'm just waiting for a chnace to get away from here, so i will be able to get some doctor's help without letting them know.
I've written such a long post, hehe. One thing I want to tell. I'm sure love, kindness, goodness, and faith and belief in them will be best cure for us, best thing to fight off this stupid depression. Sometimes i really need someone who can truly understand me, i guess all of you feel the same. So let's truly support each other. I wish this would be a place where one could find love and understanding from those with same situations. =]

Dino, DB, and Sunlight,

I, too, suffer from depression. I have been treated with medication; however, I have allowed myself to stop and start it, in an effort to deny that I have any issues. I have shared my feelings with my mother who is supportive as long as "no one else knows". I am so tired of pretending to be happy all the while feeling useless and helpless. I have gone down the same paths as each of you. Alienating my friends, crying easily, feeling worthless, and the list goes on. I recently left a physically and emotionally abusive relationship which has in turn magnified all of my negative thoughts once again.

I, too, have people who supposedly care about me telling me to stop feeling sorry for myself. I just want to scream and say "I wish it was that damn easy!!" I realize that dealing with depression will be a life-long battle, but I am thankful that I stumbled upon your postings. It is definitly comforting to know that I am not the only one who feels this way.

Hopefully, we can continue to talk and support each other as we figure out how to deal with what we are feeling. Look forward to hearing from each of you soon!!

Hi people,
First of all, i'm feeling fine, and i'm so so happy that i am.
I think, some last 4,5 days were the most awful days of my life. Thoughts of suicide just kept coming into my head involuntarily. I was afraid to be alone, afraid to even go into bathroom, afraid of myself. Now it's hard to tell how on earth i have overcome those times (i'm afraid to talk this way, that i have overcome, god may save me from another such thing), but I believe that the wish to stop myself from being a source of pain to my mother was the biggest reason that kept me going on fighting. Now I believe more than ever in power of love. And in God, although the god i believe in is probably different than yours, i'm a buddhist, hehe. So that's just it. Just wanted to share with u all how i was going on. Wish you all all the best, lots of love, and faith.

Hi everybody,

I too am a first timer here. I am so glad that i stubble upon this site because it lead me to join and reading stories of what im also experiencing helped me open up.
I have been depressed for years and still am struggling. I'm 27 and it was even hard for me to admit that i was depressed. I felt that the world was moving while i stood still. Feeling confused and not knowing how to deal with it.

I feel that i have to help myself and this is my first step by posting a message to others just like me. Knowing that i am not alone.

I am looking to take classes that interest me such as taking a yoga class. I try to go out with friends and family but its hard because i
get depressed all of the sudden and not wanting to do anything after that. Its a constant battle that i face everyday.I try to keep myself occupied as much as possible.

If anyone wanna chat i"m here

I am new to this group and needed to know that there are people like me out there. Some days all I do is cry.I am tiring to find people that are going through what I am going through to talk(online) to.Only someone going threw depression knows what I am going threw.I just need to talk(online) to someone. It is important to know that we are not alone.