Depression

My mom suggested that I find a group for depression. I have struggled with it since I was around 14. I am 25, a mother of two, and a wife. Depression is like that awful kid next door that follows you where ever you go and casts the shadows on an otherwise sunny day. I have been prescribed numerous antidepressants, but none of them have fit the bill for me. The side effects are to much on all of them that I have tried. With some I never sleep, others all I seem to do is sleep. I lose all sex drive and this was making my hubby feel as if I no longer cared for him, and if not that, then I lose the happy moments. With a screwy thyroid one pill that seemed perfect made me gain a lot of weight. So for the past year to year and a half I have been going without. My husband is my sounding board along with my mother. They know everything about me and my feelings and what I go through daily, so if they ever said it was time to go back on the meds, well I would jump up and do it. Right now I am on two new drugs for an anxiety disorder and they seem to be doing great. But, it is almost Christmas and the worries seem to be piling up. Phone got broke due to my youngest feeding it an ice cream, the computer went to the blue screen of death right when a project for school is due, then hubby's employer laid him off a few days ago. I know that this happens everyday to a lot of people, but when you are depressed anyway it always hits harder. I would like to join your community here and listen to your problems and if I can, help you. Sometimes just talking with others who are at that same spot as yourself is a relief.

I wish you all luck and joy in everything that you do.

hey mommybhappy-

i read your post and i really admire you. i am currently a junior nursing student trying to get through college. I had my major depressive episode the during my freshman year going into the summer after my freshman year. I tried to tell the people at school that something wasn't right but they didn't believe me. it was a really bad situation.I had no friends and i was failing all of my classes. i went back my sophomore year and stuff got worse. to start i finally got diagnosed with major depressive disorder and then generalized anxiety disorder, but then i started to get really bad migraines after a horrible medical decision. they just wouldn't go away. i had to take reduced classes and work with disability services to make things worse. Now I am in my junior year. without disability services I would not be able to get through a semester. i finally got diagnosed with chronic episodic migraines. and my doctor thinks that my depression is a trigger. i am on loads of meds... 13 to be exact and my goal at this point is to get through the semester (spring). you've written that things are possible

Hi there, I'm a newbie too and trust I understand what you're going through. It's always something, just when you think you've started to make progress - crap happens ya know? People say deal with one thing at a time...haa depression doesn't work that way. It makes you deal with everything at once that horrible feeling in your stomach like you're going to be sick if you hear anything else negative about life. I will also agree with you on the whole bs with rx's nothing works just right that's just it. Some make you fat, some make you detached from sex which make things even worse lol nice huh? The only thing that sometimes helps, hitting the gym. Even if you just go and walk for about 30-40 mins it's the best thing to clear your mind and regroup.

hi there. its nice to know that someone can relate. none of my friends really know so when i say that i'm having a bad day emotionally, they really don't understands. its nice i can finally write in a message board where people understand.