Depression

I have been depressed for over 25 years. Probably from my mid twenties till now. When I was younger, I handled it with drugs and alcohol. I didn't seek help until about 6 years ago.I don't do drugs and alcohol anymore and did well for several years. I took zoloft and that seemed to work but the side effects were terrible. SO I stopped cold turkey about a year ago and the depression just slipped up on me tenfold. On Dec 13th of this year, I attemtped suicide and apparently failed. I have been hurt so many times in my life and I am now blaming myself. I have lost so many women because of my depression. Now I am alone. I have lost my kids (divorce) and everyone I loved. That's why I tried to kill myself. Is there anyone out there who has beat this. I am so tired of feeling this way. Now, I cry everyday. All I feel is hopelessnes and emptiness. I don't know what to do. It used to be where I would have my good days and bad days. Now I am down all the time. Is there hope for me? Anyonje have any advice to pull myself out of this. I pray to be happy and stay happy with myself. I know what everyone is going thru here. I know the feeling. Help?

Jimi, your symptoms are severe enough you might need hospitalization. I urge you to seek help immediately from a mental health professional and get back on some meds. If one doesn't work right, try another. There are so many meds out there, surely there is one that can help you.

jimi - i know how yo2u feel... i mean, i don't have kids but i do know how you feel as far as wanting to commit suicide. althogh i'm severely depressed right now, i do know that life is worth living. i hope you can see that. it IS worth living. i've been hospitalized voluntarily once and i went into a home that was basically the non-hospital voluntarily once too. maybe it'd be helpful.. do you have insurance? if not, there are free support groups that i've found too...

happy 2008... truly.
-lauren.