Hi, all !
Have you ever noticed the link between depression and weekend ?
Well, I´m asking that because I have.
I was more or less stable last week, till Saturday.
I studied in the morning and, after that, I thought: great! now I can relax and enjoy my weekend.
The day after, Sunday, I woke up already a little bit anxious and all of those questions my mind likes to ask me when I´m depressed came up: "what´s the point of life?", "You don´t have anybody and you will always be alone", "living is boring", "you are a useless person" and so on. Does anybody of you also have these kind of questions in your mind ?
I felt even worse on Monday, not willing to do anything, and spent some time sleeping to forget my anxiety.
I talked to my psychologist this morning and it helped a little bit. I tried to have a normal day today although I know the symptoms are still inside. I´m probably going to feel better tomorrow and again more or less stable till next Saturday. On Sunday, I have noticed, I feel more vulnerable to get depressed and usually have a downswing.
Since I told my best friend, two or three months ago, that I needed psychological help she stopped writing to me and just disappeared. Has she given up on me ? Probably, and it hurts VERY VERY MUCH !
I´m tired of my symptoms, tired of myself, tired of not knowing how to deal with this
I hate not having a stable mood.
Thanks,
Ingrid.
