Depression

I have recently become really depressed. I am in college and have a really hard time staying focused on school and graduating. I usually have really strong goals and drive but lately I have felt like doing nothing. I feel so upset and confused because this is not who I want to be! I just started medication and my lows are worse than before. I can stay in bed all day because I just can't bring myself to do anything. I feel like I have failed everyone around me and myself. I don't know what else to do. I was thinking that finding someone to share with would help me out.

Hi,

I am sorry to say there are no easy answers; all I can say is that it takes time; I have lived with depression for several years and have learnt something valuable....

ITS NOT YOU’RE FAULT - YOU HAVE NOT FAILED YOURSELF OR ANYBODY ELSE!

It is not always easy living with depression but by admitting it and getting help you are giving yourself the best possible chance to achieve everything you want to.

The medication takes time and sometimes things can get worse before they get better but IT WILL GET BETTER, unfortunately it just takes time.

I wish you all the best and know that because of what you have already achieved you will come out to this a stronger person.

Hi swind1209

I"m new to this site and i am amazed of how many people are going through depression. I myself have been depressed for many years and im now 27 its tough feeling that theres something wrong,days where you feel good, bad and worse of all not wanting to socialize with anyone. and isolating yourself. I can relate

You starting to take medication is good. Not only are you focusing on school but yourself as well. I give you props for that. Its trial and error until you"ll sense what medications work well for you.

I too feel that i have failed everyone around me. To be honest i do alot of apologies hehehe.

Having depression is hard and getting rid of it will be harder. It takes time and alot of work.

Hello my name is scott, and i have been depressed ever since i started high school ( for 5-6 years now ), i am only 16 years old and already i want to die. It all began when i was just starting high school with my best friend who i trusted with my life, who i felt i could tell anything to but in the end he turned his back againest me and made lies about me, my family, and my house. He made fun of me and created a fake website up about me putting up all kinds of untrue things about me on it, and he then sent it to everyone he knew and at the same time he made new friends.

When he made new friends they all started to bully me and talk behind my back when i wasnt at school ( i didnt go because i was getting bullied )and they too made lies about me. I still remember one very unpleasant day for me which was they all soaked me with their water bottles wen i was going to class and i thought to myself ''f this'' and i was in the head masters office crying cause that was the point where i just couldnt take it anymore.

So overall school was very hard for me. I am now going on to collage in september and i will meet most of them again . When i left high school i felt so relieved to get out of that hell hole but i had to face more depression from my parents, my parents fight and argue everyday. i am now sitting in the house which is full of tension everytime i walk into the living room or any other room for that matter. I sit in my bedroom thinking to myself every minute '' i know something bad is going to happen today with my parents''. And they always put me in the middle they dont care how i feel wen they are fighting all they care about is fighting for their own personal gain/to try and get thier own way.

So all i do now is sit in my room either lying in bed not being able to go out anywhere cause of my parents (they are a major embaressment to me)and i sit up all night listening to great music which is very depressing ( i.e linkin park in the end ) and i keep hoping and praying that i will just die of a heart attack or something cause i dont have the guts to kill myself

Scott Coles.

It's scott again i have so many reasons why i want to die and why i get depressed, but right now i wish i was never born i wish i was dead. i feel that life is a game life isnt fun life is like a cage, from which i cannot get out i have no confidence i just feel unappreciated i feel i am useless in every where possible.

Scott.

Hello can someone please reply back to me please i need help or something

It's scott again, i feel i dont have a purpose in this world i feel that i am alone ever since school, i feel that i have just failed myself in life an everyone around me.

I just want to die i wish i was never born. My whole life sucks.

It's me again i need serious help. ( you think im joking? u think im writing on this for fun? ) wrong i am pure serious tonight i just witnessed my parents faighting and the were throwing a big radio at eachother and then they tore up their wedding piture and some other pistures.

Right now i dont really care anymore cause i knew something like this would happen the other night my dad said he might need to call in the wellfare for my mother, i jsut dont care anymore. And now tonight i am sitting here with my knife ( from my chest box ) and i am thinking should i kill myself? or just let nature kill me??.

I await anyones reply.

Thank you.

hi scott
i am here for you
i understand what your going through and could use you to talk to as well.
please feel free to reply to me

well like atm ( at the minute ) im listenin to music whic is kinda depressing me even more and when i lsiten to it i think back over all the bad things that happened to me. I keep thinking about suicidial things you know