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I am really new to this, I have never done anything like this before. I have not been to the doctor yet but I think I am really depressed. I cry all the time and I think I am the worst person out there. I feel like I am going through this alone and no one in my life cares. I tried to talk to my mom about it she acts like I'm making it all up for attention but I'm not. Everyday is so hard to get out of bed because I think I am worthless and have no purpose. I don't have anyone to talk to because no one understands. I think that punish myself my listening to depressing music and purposely eating fast food when I feel really depressed. I just want someone to talk to that wont judge me and just listen. Does anyone feel the same way?
I don't know if it will be a relief to know and I'm not a doctor, but I believe you are depressed. I don't know if it will feel fortunate or not, but you're not alone. I've suffered from severe depression most of my life (I'm 48), it's no picnic, but you can live with it. I've been on medication and it helps. My imbalance is severe so although the meds keep the really dark days away they don't make me want to get out of bed in the morning, or feel any strong connection to most of my life. I exist, I have two kids (14 & 15 - in fact it's my son's birthday today and I have to get it together so I can throw something of a party for him) At this point in my life I'm pretty tired of what feels like an endless challenge to get from one day to the next. But there are good days and they make it worth it. As for your mom, I haven't found many people who are comfortable with depression, it's easier to deny and just offer suggestions of getting more exercise (which I found when I can force myself to do it does help, but doesn't cure) Eating right also helps, but sometimes, especially if you're handling this alone, doing whatever you need to do to stay alive another day is okay. But see a doctor as soon as you can. Having someone who recognizes what you're going through and can offer support ( & meds) is a MUST! You can't do it alone. Good Luck, Gita
Hello Misty, I am also new to this. I decided maybe I could find some comfort/enlightenment. Like Gita, I am older (55-woman) and have been dealing with depression since my early 20's. I have felt exactly as you've described: hopeless (when, in fact, my life seems very good: great husband and two daughters, retired, nice house, etc., etc.) and wondering what is worth anything. I DO know what depression is and when I feel this way I'm pretty sure it's temporary, even though it doesn't feel like it at the time. I have a psychiatrist who I've seen for several years to prescribe my meds. and an excellent psychologist who's helped me through a lot. Maybe you could start with seeing a dr. or a counselor to get you headed in the right direction. And yes, people who don't understand tend to only make things worse. I hope you'll move ahead and look for some help for yourself. You don't have to live that way. All best.
