Depression

well, I would like to just put my foot in the door , not sure where this might go, but I have serious issues with my diagnosed depression? I have read that there are many forms of it , I am no dr, so I couldnt tell you which one or how many I have.
I am 42 year old man, pretty good health,well, until I got this issue with my depression or whatever, we will just call it depression, I just hate to call it anything, for fear , if I keep telling myself what it is, well, it will be just that, I would like to be able to say I am fine with no worries, but its not making me this way.

I know there are people on here that are probably not as bad as I and some that are worse than I , I don't intend on stepping on anybody's feet, all I want is my darn life back.

I struggle to get up and do anything, I have no energy and everything seems hopeless or just difficult , so I dont even given it a woorl.

I have talked to psychiatrists and even had a physical from dr's , They both say DEPRESSION and that I need to take this here pill, OK I say , I will give it a try, well, after 3 months of taking it and costing me alot of money out of pocket , I see no results, so I quit taking it, This is also something I have read many times again, Dont ever just quit taking it. The way I see it is, if it makes me feel dizzy and no help , why? why continue taking it.

I want to be fixed just like everyone in here, I feel like I have my hands tied and no one can tell me what the problem is, I feel that its all a guess, here try this pill, oh ok, that didnt work, try this one, oh ok, that didnt work, lets try this, keep in mind that I have no insurance right now (no insurance , job, partly why I am depressed, I think or visa versa) I would like results, no I am no expecting instant results, but I would expect somthing to help me with my problem after taking pill after pill and talking to dr after dr.
I still feel my hands are tied and that things are hopeless with me ever being happy , all I want is to have an interest in things , smile , be nice to people, be excited again, I am so sad that my life is passing me by , I dont want to see myself turn 50 in 8 years and be in the same boat I am in now.

I just would like a miracle pill, is there such a thing? a one time deal?
I dont have a problem working at it, I would just want to see results, I dont want to be a test rat .

I wish I knew for sure that there were hope, I wouldnt wish this feeling on anyone , I know first hand what it feels like to be down , depressed and depressed for along time, well, along time for me.

I also hate what I am doing to the people around me , that love me, I am down, I know It affects them also,

I have told myself many of times, if this is living , I dont want it. The only thing that holds me here is that if I were to take my life , what would it do to the ones that love me, thats selfish and I just cant hurt them that way.
All I know is that I dont care or have interest in anything anymore.
I wish everyone luck, and if anyone would like to talk , please dont hesitate. I need to find a cure just like everyone on here. I just keep holding on to hope that there will be that one moment things will snap and all will be normal again, I am keeping fingers crossed.I just hope its sooner than later.
I keep trying you should too, dont give up, I am not ready to.

Unfortunately I know what you mean when you say a "miracle pill". Ten years ago I started suffering from seizures and have been on every anti-epileptic medication that there is. It wasn't until recently that it was confirmed that they are non epileptic seizures. I know how aggravating that is.

As far as insurance, have you looked into the program that Montel Williams supports? It is a program that can cover a percentage or all of your prescription costs. It might be worth looking into.

Good luck to you.

Laura

There is definitely no such thing as a miracle pill, but the chances of you finding one that works for you are between 80 and 90 percent. I was lucky enough to find one that worked right away and it changed my life. Just find a good doc and keep trying. It is possible to get your life back.

If money is a problem, many clinics work on a sliding scale and can hook you up with programs like the one Montel Williams is involved in.