Depression

I recently diagnosed with border line personality disorder .... i have suffered my whole lofe but because my mother doesnt believe in couseling.. or rather she does but she is way too inconsitant and doesnt believe in my mental illness i have never been treated. Ive been alone for a long time. no friends no family no boyfriend. Just me and my kid and she is 2- not someone i can exactly lean on. I work full time and go to school along with a prt time job as well. I live by myself. i am on and off with anti depressents anxity and anti psycotics meds and nothing seems to help. if anything they make me more mad and angry and more sad. I cant to DBT- my insurance doesnt cover it and i cant afford it out of pocket. Im realy struggling and im tired of hurting, i have been in the hospital for attempted suicide before but i cant ever find anyone who can take me erirously im alone and hurting and running out of options. I feel like im screaming for help and there just isnt anyone to help me.... everyday is hell and every day is hard. Im finding it harder and harder to get thru the day with out a thought of wanting to die or giving up. Honestly the only thing that is keeping me is going is my daugter.. she is all i have, literally so you can imagine what its like to have this depression anxiety and have NO support. I just dont know what to do anymore