Depression

I am completely new to discussion/support groups and im just hoping to find some nice people who can help me through this tough time.

I am 30 years old and was diagnosed with depression 12 years ago. I have been on many meds and gone to counseling for years, but still have not overcome my feelings of sadness, despair, and how alone i feel all the time. I have had some small periods where it wasnt so bad, but recently things have gotten really bad.

In the past year I moved across the country to a place where I didnt know anybody, started a new job, got divorced, and took over all the household finances on my own. Little overwhelming at times.

It has been a few months now that I have been living alone. I can't get past how desperately alone I feel all the time. I just sit in my house and cry for hours, even cry myself to sleep at night. The thing that makes it worse is that my friends and family think I am so strong and are proud of all my accomplishments. They dont understand everything i have is material and I could care less about. Wonder what they would thinnk if I told them I would trade in everything I have just to be happy?

I came on here to see if anyone could relate or shed some light on the subject. I am currently in counseling, but an hour a week isnt helping much. Thank you for listening and I hope I can get some responses.

Dear Baechgrl, I too live in isolation, except when I have my children. I live alone and work alone, divorced in 2007 after 18yrs. Heartbroken about the desintegration of my beautiful family. I have 3 small children ages 3, 6, and 8. I aslo live away from my family - alone 400 miles away. I am trapped here because I won't leave my dear children. My depression is severe at times too. I have developed a small support network through Celebrate Recovery. A guy from the group called me last night to share. I wish I could help more. I wish we could reach out to each other more somehow. I send Love to you and I said a little prayer for you.

hey im with u on that one im 23 and i sit at home and cry but cant sleep. il willing to email and talk to keep company i could use some one to talk to that feels lonly also. im going threw a break up and i sit at hom eu know going out just isnt the same with my friends just life is differt. neways im here to chit chat with email me netime joshkemp@tmo.blackberry.net ul find someone again and light ur life up full of joy. being alone sucks i know. *hug*im here thogh to chat if ud like ;-)

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i feel for you.. im 45 years old, 46 soon,, i moved 3 years ago across state for a job which i thought would be better but i hate it, hate the city and this part of the state,, my last g/f was almost 4 years ago and there has been noone since,, never ben married no kids, and no family up here,, i have bascially no support network,, i get maybe 3- 4 hours of sleep a nite so im always overtired,, i think about death and suicide almost more than anything and i am surprised im still alive,, but i know noone will come to my funeral.. noone would care..
ive lost all my goasl, dreams aspirations almsot all that used to make me happy,, i dont know what happiness is anymore ,,ive lost it all,, all my life ive been a freak and its getting worse,, i have no self esteem and no self respect,, dont even know how to get this stuff,, and ive realized noone cares,, ive kinda given up,, i wish i had a support network, some friends,, this lonliness and isolation is killing me
i wish i knew how to support you,,
ive dealt with depression most of my life but didnt have a name for it,, inherited it from my grandmother and my mother,, and a messed up life,, im not normal,, never have been and dont know if it will get better,, maybe not