Bipolar Depression

For 3 years I have been getting treated for OCD, and PMDD. Both my Gyn and my family doctor thought this was what was going on. Mood Swings and OCD runs in my family. I have a lot of mood swings but they don't seem to add up to all the stories I have read. Matter of fact being diagnosed with this is new to me and scary. I have no idea what a mania is, or any of these things are. I don't cheat, or steal or go nuts on people. I have several times had a anger problem not knowing why I was so upset. I have thrown tantrums my whole life. And I do get depressed near my cycle and I have had OCD tendencies off and on but nothing I haven't overcome. I have never been to this severe side. I did go into a serious depression BUT I did stop all anxiety meds cold turkey. I was on zyprexa 2.5 and I was so upset that I went from 118 to 146 in less than a month. I am petite. SO I quit that. And I guess that sent me into a depression because then I stopped taking my zoloft 200mg. Now I have seen a specialist and he thinks I may have a mild case of Bi-Polar with OCD. I am now on 60mg of Geodon and still and now back on Zoloft 200mg. Things are going well on it. I don't want to read all these horror stories. Will I become as bad as all of these people everyone speaks of?? I have symptoms of Bi-Polar but with my medication I am doing great. I know now I need this medication because of how awful I felt off it, and how enraged I became off of it. And the other thing is my specialist wants me to start immediately to see his Psychatrist. I don't have a horrible life, I am very blessed. What do you talk with them for and do I really have to go? I am just really confused about a lot of this. Am I going to do all these things like cheating and screaming and fighting and stealing money? I haven't so far except for the few times off my medication I have had a flared temper. Any information would be appreciated.

Thanks,
Tink

Hey Tink, welcome!

I'm a high-functioning bipolar 2. Bipolar 2 is usually not as debilitating as bipolar 1. I have been married 27 years, and hold down a decent job. I'm not all the bad stuff you read about bipolar disorder. Maybe some of it, but not all. Life's not always easy, but that's the case with anyone. I have to say, the good times are exceptional. Like my wife says, "it's been a hell of a ride, but I wouldn't change a thing."

Only you can decide what treatment options are right. But DO take an active role in your treatment. Take it slowly, ask questions, and don't be afraid to say no or ask for other options if you're not comfortable with a particular treatment.

You mentioned not know what a mania is. I would recomment mood charting for a while. It will get you tuned in to your moods, and I found it invaluable. Your healthcare providers will be better able to suggest treatment options with this information also.

Don't worry, it won't change anything. Roll with it, and enjoy life!