Bipolar Depression

I started posting at the beginning of August, why do i keep putting off going to a doctor? I had a really bad day yesterday. I want to keep telling myself, " I just had a bad day ". I am believing that this is the way I am suppose to feel. I have been like this forever. I need some support, because when i get in my episode, I just know now to Be Alone. People just need to stay away from me. I am tired of hurting them tho.

I am completely where you are at right now. I've had some really bad days lately and I am new to this BP thing. I am seeing a Pdoc but my meds aren't right and I have little to no support from family members. This is not to say that you shouldn't go to a Pdoc or your family doc. You should - to someone you trust at the least. Right now though my family members think I am crazy and should be locked away and not in the vicinty of small impressionable children (old south way of thinking). Point is, we aren't normal - we have BP and that isn't normal but what I've gathered from GJ, Lynne, and John is though we are not "normal" in the eyes of those who don't have BP - we can make a "normal" for ourselves with the BP illness. It just takes some time unfortunately. I hope this helps, I meant it to. Have someone - anyone go with you, if you go to a doc, that you know without a doubt will have your back - if that will ease your hesistation.

Sherri - normal is not the same for any one of us whether bipolar is involved or not. You are not alone if this means anything to you in your struggle. I know counseling is the only way to get a grip on what is happening - I've spent most of my life avoiding counseling but I am ready for relief and counseling is the only way (and meds) to get there. Consider counseling as soon as you can.

Sherri - I've been where you are now. It was incredibly difficult for me to admit my illness and seek treatment. But the best thing I ever did for myself and my family was to seek treatment. Life has become SO much easier.

Take that first step. Pick up the phone and make a call to your preferred health care professional. There is no reason for your life to be so difficult. Reclaim it. Live it. Enjoy it. You deserve it.