Bipolar Depression

I made an appointment with a P and i see her on tuesday, 9-12,2006. I can't take any more, my life is falling apart. What is the best medicine? What do i need to know? My boyfriend of 8 years is leaving, he had enough.He thinks I can control my moods. I try, i can't,i do not even see anything wrong sometimes. He does not believe in chemical imbalances.
I wish ny father was here, he understood me.

You know what is funny, When i was a little girl, growing up in the 60's, there was this crazy woman, her husband left her, she had nothing to do with her kids.She just walked around town. Doing nothing. People would say 'do no talk to her' SHE WILL JUST BLOW UP."
I always thought" I never wanted to get crazy "To be sequestered off from others.
I knew I had my moods back then, people told me. I just did not really pay attention to it.My dad did tho.He passed awsy in 2001.
My family treats my like the blacksheep, but i think i put myself there. If I try to talk to my sisters, they do not want to hear it. My mom says NOTHING>.....
My BF is leaving me , going back home, 4 hours away.TODAY. I feel so alone, I do not like feeling sorry for myself, I want to be in control.

Sheri,

Sorry to hear what you're going through now, but hang in there. Your P will help you figure out what the best medicine is for you. Even though we may all be bipolar, there are many individual variations, and we all react differently to drugs. It may take some experimentation to find the best drug or combination of drugs for you.

But it usually takes more than drugs to get our lives going in a good direction, so I hope you'll explore talk therapy and lifestyle changes as well. The talk therapy helps us get our thoughts working for us instead of against us.

By lifestyle I mean your sleep, eating and exercise patterns--basically, how you run your daily life so that it supports you instead of setting you up for breakdown.

All of these things take time, of course, so I hope you'll first of all give yourself a break and be patient.

A support group has helped me over the last few years, so you might check to see if you have one in your area and start going to meetings. You can learn a lot from each other's experience. Check out Depression & Bipolar Support group listings to find a group in your area.

When I was young, I was the black sheep in my family, so I know how that feels. I wasn't diagnosed as bipolar until my forties, so it took a long time for me to grow out of that role.

Good luck and let us know how things go.

Lynne
Read my blog at Lynne's Bipolar Blog