Bipolar Depression

This is kind of all new to me, I experienced it once before with my husband (of 11 years)(he up and left me)just over 2 years ago, but then, I had no idea it could be Bp. I have posted a couple of messages in here and got some awesome support and, I read them almost everyday it helps me get through and gives me hope, but unfortinately when I keep recieving the words--"get on with your life" practically every time he e-mails, I fall into a pile of despair, because all I can think about is it really over this time? But my husband ran Jan. 25 and still won't talk(phone) to me and still keeps saying that things are the same, he doesn't love me like he should and that I should get on with my life, it's not just me it's him too. That was the e-mail he sent today.I can't just turn off the love I have for him like he seems to want---like as if we were never married(he can--just like that)--but this whole thing is driving me crazy!!It's hard to keep going here all by myself, and live without wanting him so badly and it effecting every corner of my soul.I just don't know if I should be thinking it is the illness or if he is gone for good? But who does that to thier spouse if it is not Bp? Especially when things were going pretty good(a couple of tiffs--but nothing different than most couples do----I've asked around.)( except that he was put on antidepress meds a couple of weeks before this happened-----I didn't know this was bad then) I just read an old post from GJ Gregory and he said that this is pretty common, that some people with Bp( he has not been diagnosed yet)tend to dissapear. I know he has done this most of his life---run.But what can I expect?
Is there a possibility that he won't want me back this time? Or even talk to me.Is this common?Is there anything I can do so that he will want to communicate? I am trying to take care of myself,because I still have to live somehow.
I have a million questions because I fear that I will never see him again, and I don't want to live the rest of my life with a candle in my window, waiting for him to come back to me. I appreciate any help anyone can offer. Thanks Ty

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I am going through a divorce from a unfaithful bi polar wife. You need to understand one thing

You are not losing him, you will be getting rid of him.

You deserve better than this for your life. Honestly think about it, to you want to be his second choice for the rest of your life?

I had to face this decision when my wife told me she wanted a divorce. She is in a mania so bad right now, she is destroying everything, her relationship with her kids, (she is away several nights a week to be with her boyfriend) her job, (she is ditching work to be with her boyfriend) and everything else

You have to ask yourself, Is this all you are worth, sitting around waiting for him to come back?

Or can you see that down the road you can find someone that will do right by you and not treat you this way.

You have to decide.