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well my bipolar gilfriend of 1 1/2 yrs recently packed her things and the left the state of Florida.. She did not even tell me the one who gave her everything, but she told her friends and mother that she was just leaving but didnt tell them where. She also cut her hair real short....she supposedly went to Cali to pursue her music career. I also supported her financially. To this date(2 weeks later) no contact no email with me...so I am little hurt.........she did finally call her mom and ask if she can
return home to OHio. I am worried about her..i think i may have lost her for good. What do i do if she calls...she is non medicated etc............my question did she ever like/luv me? Is htis normal?
This is pretty common, at least in my past and for my bipolar son. When things get too much to handle, we have a tendency to disappear. When we're smothered, we are gone. Perhaps we can't actually leave, but there are other ways to make yourself not think about it.
I'm sorry you're hurt. And I'm sure there was love there, but that's the nature of bipolar, when things get too much, we cope however we can.
Hi, I was diagnosed with bipolar three years ago. I'm a rapid cycler. I was on 4 different meds a year & a half ago. I'm not taking them anymore. Now I feel even more out of control with my emotions then ever. I have been able to recognize the behavior when I need to. I know now how important it is to be on my meds. I recognize it, but I can't control it. I feel so lost. I'm so happy I found health central. I have been with my husband for 8 years now. When I was on my meds. I suppose I wasn't properly level or on the meds long enough. He was o.k. with me being emotionally sadated by the drugs, but he said to me at times it seemed that whatever was bothering me would blow up worse than he's ever seen when I was off the drugs. I haven't taken the drugs since. Now I feel worse than ever because I want so bad to feel calm inside my head again. My husband is understanding about all of this, but I'm looking for answers elsewhere.
It's not surprising that your symptoms are back and worse than before. From what I understand many of us with bipolar disorder won't improve over the years, and some of us may get worse. But a few months ago I wrote about some research suggesting that medication can stop the progression of the disorder. That post can be found here. While this is aimed at youth it holds promise for all of us suffering from bipolar disorder.
Do you have a psychiatrist or doctor you can trust? With whom you can develop a rapport? If so, give some thought to trying a different med regime. Sometimes it takes some effort to find the right combination. But of course, you do what is best for you.
Jen, I agree with G.J. about working with a doctor you trust to get your meds right. It often takes experimentation to find the right combination that keeps your moods level, but doesn't make you feel out of it or in some other way have bad side effects. Each of us is different in how we react to medication, so you have to work with your doctor and let him/her know what's happening.
Another thing I recommend is therapy, because the way we think and run our lives has a lot to do with controlling our moods. Again, you might have to try several therapists before you find one that is a good fit for you. When you do, it will be so worth it.
Good luck, and let us know how things are going. You can read my blog here at Lynne's blog.
