Bipolar Depression

hey all...im new to the site and have been bp all my life but just got formally diagnosed over a year ago..my life has been rough..and well, recently i did something that nearly cost me everything when i was in a severe state of mania. now i have to change some things in order to better myself and in order to bring my life to where i want it to be. i dont have any friends, just my husband to talk to wich he is a big help dont get me wrong but i think it will benefit me talking to the people on here because we are all going through similar things so we can relate to each other. im just looking for friends and people to talk to...until next time...

Hey, i to am looking for someone to talk to. I have had bp for 4 years or was noticing it at that time but was in deniel until a month ago and now i believe it. Had alot of rough times and still going though them and would like someone to talk to. Well let me know maybe talk to you soon. Tom

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hi tom thanks for taking the time to reply to my post. i too have had rough times and am still going through them as well. Although lately i think i have been doing alittle better not going manic so much but still just taking it one day at a time, thats about all i can do. I dont wana get ahead of myself or anything. If you want to talk more thats cool with me, sometimes it is easier to talk to people you dont know i think. Well i hope i can help..if you wana talk again feel free. maybe talk to u soon..

Of course i want to talk i think it helps me to know that i am not the only one. I dont know if i have had a manic episode but i did have a very bad anxiedy attack, for me to cry all day was not a good thing. well got to go talk to you later. tom

yeah, that is not a good thing. but i have done that before too. not really cuz anxiety so much more just being real depressed. but i do get anxiety alot too tho. im real unique and sometimes i like that i am that way but sometimes it gets hard too. i wouldnt want to be like everyone else, dont get me wrong but sometimes it feels like being so unique gets in the way and makes things harder for me like this thing they call life. well anyways hope youre feeling better. until next time.. *s.d.

Sorry about that the kids needed me. Anyway i am better now that i am on lithium i dont seem to have the moods or depression as often. I am also jogging two miles a day which also seems to help and my wife helps me alot to remember things. You sound like your getting better also. It sure is nice to hear that people can get better its refreshing. So how r u?

hey tom..im ok today i guess. didnt get very much sleep at all last night cuz i had afew drinks and im pretty sure the caffeine was what was keeping me awake. but either way it sucked not being able to get to sleep. especially sincemy husband had to get up early for work and i must have kept him awake all night with my tossing and turning. I keep trying to stop myself from going manic but it seems to keep happening. i guess i will have to try harder or try a different approach. sometimes it just gets hard to stay so calm all the time.i'd like to tho, thats ideal. one of my goals i guess you could say. to not let things bother me so much. ive been doing alot better about that tho too, cuz before things used to bother me that probably shouldnt have. im just taking it day by day. thats good youre exercising. i am forgetful also. i try to remember as much as i can but sometimes i forget things very quickly. well thanks for talking to me.i do appreciate that and it seems as if i will just have to try different things and find what works for me. until next time. *s.d.

You know i dont know what to call you RbLsTcRcKsTr is to long can i call you something let me know if you dont want to i will just call you friend. Anyways i was also up last night told my wife i cant sleep and went on the chair to get on the site hopeing you could talk but i understand. Maybe the soda wasnt good before bed. What kind of manic did you have? Are you on any meds for that? I havnt known you for long so forgive me for saying this, exersize is good it helps me for that hour or two to forget about my problems and concentrate on me, also helps my mind. I am not an exersize freak at all i just started and it seems to help and i like the comments im getting. I am also reading a book to try and help me and would like to share a praise with you. The problems we face in life our like brick walls, they are put infront of us for a reason they give us a chance to show how badly we want something. We will break these walls that face us dont know when but we will. Thanks for listening Tom.

hey tom...yeah you can call me s.d. my first name is also very long like my screenname. but ya sorry i hadnt replied yet. yesterday my husband and i got the chance to sit in the audience for a taping of a show so we went and did that. it was fun. im not really too into being on tv but my husband really wanted to go so we went. what kind of manic? just the kind where the slightest things bother me and make me start yelling and crying and slamming doors and all that. everything i dont wana do or shouldnt be doing.everything im trying to stop doing. and yes i am. i am on depakote, risperidal, and ativan but i need refills on the ativan and risperidal so im just taking the depakote for now til i can get my refills. i did do good yesterday, as i had said before i have my good days and my bad days..always in life i guess tho. ups and downs, the way things work. and thank u for the praise. hopefully one day i do 'break the wall'..until next time.. *s.d.

Hi sd, How r u today glad to hear your still talking to me sometimes i can be a pain Well you are on alot of meds i guess im lucky im only on lithium. Do these meds help you? I was looking them up as i think if mines gets worse i will be following the same path. They have alot of side effects and that scares me. Unless i get bad i hope i never have to go on them. Thats nice you went out thats good to get out i dont like staying in house it remindes me of my problem because most of the time its in the house when it happens so getting out helps me. Well until next time many good days

hey tom..yes the meds are helping me and yeah they can have alot of side effects but well that doesnt bother me too too much..I know what you mean about getting out. i dont have a job right now, so i do stay inside often times, but i like being inside my house. it is very comfortable. but getting out is fun too. my birthday is next week and we are going to orlando for a week and a half. that will be fun, i am really excited. last night i broke down and just couldnt stop crying right before bed. luckily i had my husband there. hes great.he helps me so much, and ive really learned so much from him...until next time.. *s.d.

Hi sd, sorry about you not having a job. Hope you find one soon. Hey and happy birthday orlando should be fun. Thats great about your husband sounds like a great guy glad he can help. The more people helping the better. Sorry about you breaking down lets just hope it doesnt happen to much im not family but i worry anyway. Well until next time tom

hey tom. yeah i hope i find a job soon also but i am not gonna start looking for one until i return from vacation. yeah im hoping it doesnt happen too much either. well how was your weekend? until next time... *s.d.

Hi sd, My weekend was good bbq saturday a little nervous because it was her work bbq and i have a problem with some people at her work. Just cooked and played softball to keep me busy. I watched football sunday which help me all day thank u football. Not too many episodes trying to ignore them. I feel good, only on lithium seems to be helping a lttle. My wife says im doing better though i still have roming thoughts just have to put my mind somewhere else. No break downs so far. I dont want depression meds they seem to put me in a zombie state and i didnt like it. So i will just stay busy which seems to help me. I think thats good no job till after vac you need to help yourself when eve you can. Well have a good vac i will think of you. What are you doing in orlando the only reason i ask is because i want to be jealous. Anyway until next time tom

hey tom..thats cool a bbq...we invited my husbands mom and brother over yesterday(sun) and bbq'd some food. that was fun. thats good u watched football. im not much into sports, never have been really..yeah i think vacation will be good for me. it will be good to get away for awile and enjoy some time with my husband. we are probably gonna go to the beach while we're there, and some bars and such..my 21st birthday is sunday. we havent planned out our ENTIRE trip yet, im thinking we're just gonna get there and then decide what we wanna do. it sounds like keeping busy is the best way to stay well, sane..lol..but anyhow..until next time.. *s.d.