Bipolar Depression

I feel like i'm guilty but i know that i'm not, but i've been braiwashed by my BIPOLAR..now ex girlfriend, i know that people with this desiase may feel ofended, but this is the truth.

Some things that she have done to me:

- Abussive language towards me
- Emotional abuse
- Always blamming for all that goes wrong
- During sex/love , stops and says that i'm forcing doing this or that and then cries(happened a lot of times), stopped almost every time after her pleasure, and didnt cared if i've had any.
- Wasted all her money and mine on "nothing" without asking
- Allways controled my every move
- I've said one thing and she understanded other
- Lies after lies, giving her mail or phone number to strangers on the web
- Talked a lot, on a discussion she was abussive, dramatic, and didnt let me talk at all, abussive on the phone too and on messages
- In the begining of the relationship, she already wanted to have a house or mary me
- I camed to the conclusion that i couldnt say anything more, she would explode on anything
- She couldnt stay too long on a job, she would be fired
- After almost 2 years, she said that she needed time for her, to find herself...than said that she doesnt loved me anymore, than came back to me again saying that she loves me but she felt like that because i've hurted her( i didnt).


Conclusion, i left her after another language abuse, i couldnt take it anymore, her dramatic and blaming..and because she still phoned the guy that she was having an affair via webcam chat, and she didnt care, saying that she believed that he loved her and i dont( and she was promiscuous to other guys).It was too much for me, to my own sanity, i was with a depression because of her, and she was on manic stage or mixed, and she didnt care at all if she hurted me ...she DIDNT CARE, i was begging her to help me that i was depressed, i needed her support and she didnt care, instead put the fault on me, that she couldnt help me because she was angry with me, because i hurted her feelings(i didnt), she would lie...and lie...
Been a month today that i ended the relationship, i'm still recovering from the shock....and my head still hurts, i still think of her and how she ruined my life and brainwashed me, and to those people that are afraid of people with bipolar, please leave and be happy or stay and become crazy too.

I don't know why this forum wont let me send private messages, but i find a lot of support on other people stories, so if anybody that need to talk a little(i need) you can add me :

gyzmo@live.com.pt


thanks, and sorry for english errors

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