Bipolar Depression

Hi Everybody ... I am verrry confused with my life ....(are you suprised?) My husband got very angry approx 1 1/2 years ago and it esculated to him calling the police on me because he thought I had taken his debit card from him ... while we were argueing. Now instead of working it out ... he called the police. After that I took my son and left. We went to my mothers summer home and we are still here. In the mean time.... he has not been financially stabel enough to support himself let alson all of us. So, that is why I am still separated. Besides .... I told myself I wanted to see him become stable in all areas of his life....we went through bankruptcy early in our marriage and since then I have been the Engine in our relationship. We are not living together but we are in each others lifes ... mostly because we share a son.... Our son is now 12 now realizes that Daddy is not always there or that Daddy does not know how to rationalize properly. Because I do not want to really take his father totally away from him and because I want to be able to assist if necessary, when my son is at his fathers house I have not filed the divorce papers...... So, my life is on a constant HOLD.... VERRRY Frustratins !!!!! Some Days are ok ... and other days I just want to take the quickest road out of here... I feel like I have Bi-Polar ... it is even difficult to tell other people how I am doing because it changes so much for me ... some days when his medication is going ok .. I think we might be able to have a neat little family ... other days when his meds re not right and he is scaring both my son and I .... I start looking for a way out !!!!! What am I to do ???? My life is in a constant state of HOLD !!! Somebody PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel soooooooooo alone .... Oh, by the way .... his family does not acknowledge that he has Bi-polar .... they think I just yell at him toooo much !!!!! Can you believe that !!!!! of course he told them that!!! WOWOWOWOWOW....I ask them for help and they say just ignore him ... Please Please tell me how I help myself and my son ???