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my boyfriend lives with me and has bi-polar with "psychotic effects." i can do an intro post and say hello at another time, i'm sorry to just barge in like this. but i feel like *i* am crazy now! he goes on and off different meds without telling me, although it was his idea at the start to check in with me and voluntarily let me know what's happening with his meds and treatment, because i have a young daughter to protect. when he gets upset he always throws things, usually down at the floor or a table, but he throws them in such a way that sometimes things bounce and hit me or my daughter. tonight he's done it twice just in a half hour! i asked him if he could go visit a friend or even stay overnight at a good friend's house, it enraged him. (usually he takes time outs voluntarily.) he wasn't making *any* sense. the things he was saying to me didn't match the situation, or the things i was saying.
normally i can remember and journal such an incident ... tonight has been so crazy, i can't even sort out what happened!! just that he's swearing at and insulting me in front of my daughter, and the final straw was that he screamed at her. she had sneezed and asked him for a tissue, he started to get one and she said "oh i have one, never mind!" and held it up to show him, he literally screamed "i will not be talked to like that!" and slammed out of the house, yet again. (long story short he's a runner, "leaves" for the tiniest thing.)
i'm very sorry to slide into a group this way, i was hoping to sign up during a calm period like he had earlier this afternoon, and sign up when he wasn't in the house to see it, so i could calmly learn more about bipolar, and psychotic effects, and all that stuff. i really need the information! now i need to get upstairs and locked in my bedroom with my daughter and i won't have access to the computer until tomorrow when he's out of the house again. (not sure when/if he'll come back tonight.)
he's also a clean-and-sober alcoholic and addict, has SAD, has DID, and PTSD from child abuse issues. we've been together 3 years. he usually makes sense at some point after he loses it, even if only for a moment, to say he's going to stay at a friend's house. tonight he just kept accusing me of attacking him, then he used a ton of "you ___" statements and then told me to shut the F up so he could tell me how to communicate correctly o.O *boggle* the last straw being him yelling at my little daughter for absolutely no reason, leaving us wondering if he's going to attempt suicide again this time or if he's just going to be leaving, not knowing anything.
i NEED to know ... is ANY of this normal behavior for living with a person who has bipolar with psychotic effects?? normally i can maintain loving detachment and not lose myself, tonight it was so hard and so fast and so bad, i feel like i'm the one who did everything wrong, i f'd it all up, i have to make it right, and so on. i'm genuinely scared and confused. thank you for any words of support, wisdom, etc.
My ex girlfriend (bipolar, but she says she's not)
- Abussive language towards me - Emotional abuse - Always blamming for all that goes wrong - During sex/love , stops and says that i'm forcing doing this or that and then cries(happened a lot of times), stopped almost every time after her pleasure, and didnt cared if i've had any. - Wasted all her money and mine on "nothing" without asking - Allways controled my every move - I've said one thing and she understanded other - Lies after lies, giving her mail or phone number to strangers on the web - Talked a lot, on a discussion she was abussive, dramatic, and didnt let me talk at all, abussive on the phone too and on messages - In the begining of the relationship, she already wanted to have a house or mary me - I camed to the conclusion that i couldnt say anything more, she would explode on anything - She couldnt stay too long on a job, she would be fired - After almost 2 years, she said that she needed time for her, to find herself...than said that she doesnt loved me anymore, than came back to me again saying that she loves me but she felt like that because i've hurted her( i didnt)
Conclusion, i left her after another language abuse, i couldnt take it anymore, her dramatic and blaming..and because she still phoned the guy that she was having an affair via webcam chat, and she didnt care, saying that she believed that he loved her and i dont( and she was promiscuous to other guys).It was too much for me, to my own sanity, i was with a depression because of her, and she was on manic stage or mixed, and she didnt care at all if she hurted me ...she DIDNT CARE, i was begging her to help me that i was depressed, i needed her support and she didnt care, instead put the fault on me, that she couldnt help me because she was angry with me, because i hurted her feelings(i didnt), she would lie...and lie...
Been a month today that i ended the relationship, i'm still recovering from the shock....
We are not alone, 95% of the relations end, yes and i'm sorry about the desiase, but like people with AIDS they should stay away from infectating others, BIPOLAR does too, it destroys the person and her/his beloved one, or who's near them. If someone want to chat on MSN about their stories and beeing hurt, and abused by Bipolars, here's my mail,
