I read the article by G.J. Gregory "Obsessions and Bipolar Disorder: Why?", posted on Friday, July 28, 2006 because I did a search on Obsession and it opened my eyes to behaviors I thought were particular only to me. I didn't know other people with Bipolar experienced Obsessions with Sex, Food, Drug, and alcohol use.
I experimented with Drugs and drank alcohol when I was young, but now that I'm 52 almost 53 years old, I never expected to be confronted with an Obsession to sex!
I'm obese from my already existing obsession with food, but I didn't relate that to Bipolar.
When I was living with my daughter and roommates, I never felt lonely. Then I moved in with my sister when I had to move. Once I got on my feet and now live alone, I found myself extremely and painfully lonely.
A man came into my life, and as I said, I'm obese. I never expected any man to be attracted to me or say I was sexy, but it happened. He wasn't what you would call a "Nice Man". I was told by my family members to "stear clear", but as usual, because of my lack of control in situations (like buying a car, spending too much money, etc...), I let myself be seduced. I prayed for deliverance, and for a time, thought it was over.
Now I'm in a new loving relationship, and I can't get this other man out of my head! It's driving me crazy and just when I think I get a handle on things, he comes around again. He even showed up once when my new boyfriend was at my home. I keep thinking there's got to be some kind of "wrongness" to these feeling, and I should be able to have some sort of control. I'm a Christian for heaven sake, why am I feeling this way! This whole thing makes me cry!
If anyone knows of a way I can "wash the man right out of my hair" and salvage my budding new relationship, please share.
I've just started with therapy and will be adding whatever I learn here.
Shar
