Bipolar Depression

HOW IS ONE SUPPOSED TO UNDERSTAND ME WHEN I DONT? I DONT UNDERSTAND MY OWN THOUGHT PROCESS AND HAVING A RELATIONSHIP WITH PEOPLE TRYING FOR THEM TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I GO THOUGH. I WISH THAT I REALLY DIDNT HAVE TO GO THOUGH THIS AWFUL ILLNESS. THIS ILLNESS IS DESTROYING ME!! ITS DESTROYING MY SPIRITS AND MY SOUL!!

I am new to all this posting stuff, but I have to reply to you. This disorder is a dibilitating thing to us. We cannot ket it get us, no matter how hard it gets to fight it. My soul is stronger than this thing is. I just wonder sometimes where I went, when I actually left my body and became this bipolar person...the day I could not function something snapped with me. This was the third time and enough was enough. The spirit and soul are stronger as I am hoping ...

Kate...are you seeing a therapist right now? Are you on a medication regimen? What kind of material have you read about your bipolar disorder? I know that my husband is on 4 different medications, is seeing 2 therapists & is able to lean on me when he's feeling bad. Sometimes support is the most important thing for you. Please let us know what type of support you're getting.

BYD

Im on one medication for bipolar lamictal 200mg and I still have problems just not the same. I mean she said this is the medication best to fit my rage issues. But everytime I say anything she just ups the mgs so I dont even bother saying anything anymore. I just hold everything inside and its eats at me so bad that nobody understands not even my parents they make things worse for me becasue they have no idea what goes on in my head and mind. The struggle that I go though everyday. The support Im getting is me and thats it and people on here help a lot.

Kate,
I hear ya. Can only read about it, talk to other bp people and our doc. Our loved ones can read up on it, if they care about us. It is a tough illness. But we have it. Have to fight our way through it. You're not alone. Go to DBSA bp group meeting if you can. Meet others like us. Make friends. Friends to call or email. Support.
Hang in there.