Bipolar Depression

I have been living with my s/o for 3 years. They were diagnosed with Bipolar 2/and some depression. When I met my s/o, I was very patient, understanding, and was not nearly as angry as I am now. Now, I fly off the handle with everything, I call my s/o names, I degrade her, and I feel like I am losing control of myself. My s/o has developed some OCDs, and is in fear constantly of getting sick. They have stopped taking meds because they don't want to get sick, and I don't know what to do. I feel like I am not the support I was once for her. I just feel like I have lost total control. Please help.

Not to offend but it sounds like the stress of your SO being Bipolar over the last 3 years has sorta gotten to you.

Have you considered seeking help yourself? Sometimes the SO without the illness, after a period of time, becomes stressed and ill themselves. You may want to consider seeking some help yourself and quite possibly some medication if need be.

Corey, you are exactly right...
Funny thing is I see the change in myself, but I cannot get myself to go to counseling for some reason, almost like I refuse to admit its gotten to me. I look for counseling in the area, and even have set appointments but have yet to fully commit.

I understand your feelings Sherlock, for my SO was diagnosed with bpI with psychotic episodes, and panic disorder, but that was only after he was first diagnosed (and treated) for depression. Before he was given welbutrin he tried to kill himself. it was awful. after the welbutrin got into his system he became manic.....and his mania did not result in feelings of euphoria. he was mean, nasty and vile verbally. he beat me down mentally with his words. he started to hear voices and think i was whispering behind his back. he just knew i was plotting agasint him. so back to the doc we went. thats when he was diagnosed and prescribed depakote. he fought the meds for quite sometime, which in turn made him fight with me. he almost completely turned his back on me and swore i was the enemy. he's since gotten on a regular med schedule and come to terms with his diagnoses, and things are better; however, it took its toll on me. i fell into depression. i developed the "shakes" (the only way i know how to explain it), and i also started to suffer from panic attacks. I lost 35 pounds in 4 weeks because i couldnt keep anything in. i went to the doctor and spilled my guts. he prescribed cymbalta and xanax. i've been on them for about three weeks now and i must say i do feel better. the cymbalta allows me to eat and actually keep it in. the xanax curbs the panic attacks. i've also started seeing a counselor, which helps tremendously. please take care of yourself. we have to be strong and well to offer any support. dont feel bad or angry with yourself for your feelings; i think that anger is a natural response to bp and some of the behavior it causes. take care

When my husband was diagnosed I went to the Dr. with him and I was prescribed celexa and klonopin for my anxiety attacks. That was 3 years ago. I stayed on it for about 2 years. It really helped as I too had the shakes and horrible anxiety. I also got Lunesta to help me sleep as I would wake up numerous times during the nite worrying. Itoo used to be so angry and lash out and say horrible things that I knew I should not say. The meds helped there and so did time. We too are under extreme pressure to try to help our S/O and keep our life going. Good Luck, we have all been there and know what you are going thru.

Corey my husband is on Wellbutrin 2xday and Lamictal 100 mgs. 2x day. This combination has worked very well for him(as longas he takes them reg.} He has had no side effects and he is on a much stronger dose than you. Good Luck.