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I am bipolar, BPD, PTSD, chronic depression. I take Seroquel, Lithium, Wellbutrin, Prozac and Ativan. I go up and down so bad. I really dont know if I am really feeling better and am I making myself think that I am better. I see my therapist once a week and he really helps, but I have no one else to talk to who understands what is going on. As I sit here typing I dont feel like I am in the right skin, the feeling I get is that I want to scratch my skin off. I feel like there is something missing and I want to cry so bad but my body wont let me. Suicidal thoughts keep racing my mind and how to do it, but they leave just as fast as the thoughts come. I always put on my happy face so everyone will stop asking me "whats wrong?". This has been going on for years and everything came to a head this past May. I have been in and out of the hospital 5 times since May. I am afraid to go back so I think this is why I just tell everyone that I am O.K., tired!
you have some tough issues,but everyone here has been through their own.i'm not a doc but you should definately discuss this with your doc.you may by on too many meds,wrong dosage or wrong combinations.just a guess!how long have you been on the meds,when was dx'ed.
if you want to share what happened in may then by all means ...share.if not we'll understand.BPD and PTSD usually stem from an event in your life,have you talked with your doc about it.or identified it yet.might help. its not a bad thing to go to hospital.know one wants to be there,but it can help.
kepp the happy face,but behonest with others,they may be able to help.
I'm so sorry things are tough for you. The fact that suicidal thoughts don't last tells you the meds are doing their job. Along with the therapy, keep working with your doc for the right med or medication cocktail for you.
